Dear family and friends,

                Words cannot express how much God is doing in me. For example I can't even think of what to say to you all when I get to talk to you on the phone because well, there is so much to say and I cant form words. My birthday was on the third and it was awesome to see how my team took time to make it special and fun for my sad heart. I got to

thinking about it though and realized something, how many people get to say they turned 18 India?!?!  I do!

   

You guys, I have never felt this much love for a child in my entire life! Radha told me I couldn't leave, and so I pretended to sleep. It didn't work, sadly. So I got up and grabbed her hand. I pulled her into the room that held my purse and wrote her a letter telling her she was loved and always would be. We walked out to the cars hand in hand, she hugged me and told me I had to come back to see her. I couldn't tell her yes. That killed me! I told Radha I would try and with sad tearful eyes I grabbed a bracelet I had made and gave it to her. I told her that I would never forget her and I would try my hardest to come back. As we pulled out she held onto my hand and ran for a few steps before letting go. I cried to myself out of a broken heart for this single little girl.

                When I think about it now I feel as if my heart is somewhere else, and it is. I believe Jesus wanted it that way. I believe he desired for us to love people all over the earth and have our hearts spread out over oceans. Well guys, mine is and always will be. I never thought God would bless me with a love for his people that is so strong. I said from the moment we landed that I never wanted to come back to India ever again! He has changed my heart. I long to come back and see the people I have fallen in love with. I will never be the same and I love it! I pray that I never lose this, I want to come home and bring it to everyone I encounter, the love of Jesus!

                Could you guys do me a favor? Would you pray that I get to see little Radha at least once more? She inspired me to hold onto the child inside of my heart. I see Jesus in her eyes, I feel Jesus in her touch, and I love Jesus through the least of these.  I will never see people the same. I will forever see Jesus in their eyes. It blows my mind that we are living out Gods word. We are taking care of the lepers, widows, and orphans. It is humbling and amazing. If you are struggling with loving people I challenge you, spend some time out of your comfort zone! Go to a homeless shelter and volunteer, God will open your eyes and heart to his presence around you. He will give you a love that is stronger than anything you have ever known. Love the unlovable, for theirs is the kingdom of God. You will be surprised how loveable the unlovable are. They just need your love, they just need Jesus' love. Stop holding back. Start loving.

                Well until my next blog, I love you so much and I hope you take me up on my challenge. I am praying for you and I know your praying for me. I can feel it strengthening me. Thank you for your support and love. We will be with you in a month. Hugs and kisses all around!

                                                                              Living in Him,

                                                                                 Kaley Ann

 (pic of kaley and rada)